DAY 18 ~ LETTER TO THE PERSON I WISH I COULD BE!!

Dear Pamela,
I am writing this letter to us today because I know we can do so much more in life...First I think we need to work harder on the boys to become a grandmother that would be so awesome wouldn't it?? I know we would be great at it if anyone could stand to be around us when we get all big headed about how our grandbabies are the best...LOL
Next we need to get over our fears of many things like flying I think we could have fun up there looking down on the world if we could just keep from getting so scared and possibly sick!!! It's the only way we are going to see the world and there is so much I want to see....We also need to get over our fear of driving, it wasn't our fault and we can do this, together we can do anything..let's get over the fear of man beater's, hater's whatever people call them these days.... I will never understand why a man ever feels the need to hit a women..lets trust in Jay because I know that's the past and he is a gem, let's keep him!!!
I know we can get back to the bubbly person we where and I know our friends are seeing how hard we are trying and its happening a little bit more everyday, one day soon we will shock everyone that we are back to normal and back to that fun, giggly, bubbly person everyone wants to be around...I know we need to work more on our faith and trust that everything happens for a reason and we will come out on the other side stronger and wiser..his plan is so much bigger than we could ever imagine!!!!
Lets just have fun in life and someday soon the things we want to accomplish will happen..we will look back and know how far we have come..lets help people like they have helped us and just trust in God and we will be fine in life, its good and we know it, so much better than it was a few years ago when we really where afraid of everything, even walking out of the house where we hybernated for so long...We will get over these panic attacks and someday lets go back to work... it could happen if and when we get all these surgeries behind us we have a few more and our body will be back to whatever normal is, we know what it was so lets do this...There are many things we wabt to accomplish and if we put out heads together and just stay strong it will happen for us..
Love you girl, Pamela