I was only 18 when I lost you I was 5 months along and I have always wanted to know where you a boy or a girl? I know someday I will meet you and I am so looking forward to that day, I want you to know I would have been the greatest mom you could have ever asked for...but it was not meant to be...My doctor told me I could have seen you but I choose not too, I wish I could go back and have met you that day but it would have been to hard..Had you been a girl I would have named you Kristen Nicole and I am not sure if you had been a boy what I would have named you, the doctor told me there where things wrong with you and I didn't want to see that, not sure at that age I could have taken it..I mean I felt like I was still a child too. I often think of you and I want you to know you where loved and still loved and thought of often. Someday we will meet and you will know what a good mom I would have been, I am sure you already know that having seen me with your brother's Kyle and kayle..so untill we meet again know you where wanted and loved and still are today...I miss not having gotten the chance to hold you and love you the way it should have been..Life throws you curves and its hard to understand, God has a bigger plan than we can imagine so I know you are alright in his arms I believe he has a special place for children like you..untill we meet again, your loving mom..
Pam
Oh, Pam, that was a hard one. I do believe that all things happen for a reason. I think that you are right that you will get your meeting after this life is over. I also think that child knows that he or she would have been very loved. So glad that you have a handle on all of it NOW.
ReplyDeletethanks Robin, it was tough but I agree there is always a reason and I know someday I will meet my child
ReplyDeleteOh wow! That's amazing...I can't imagine the pain of writing and remembering. Thank you for sharing.
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