HAS IT BEEN 8 YEARS ALREADY??? HOW ONE DAY CAN CHANGE YOUR LIFE FOREVER..

How time fly's, its been 8 years since my car accident that took place on Dec 23, 2002, my life has changed so much some good some bad. I wish I could say I was past it and was never going to look back but I just can't seem to do it no matter how hard I try. Christmas has always been such a special time for me until that day, its funny how life can change so fast..I was really happy my marriage was a mess but I loved being with my boys everyday and living in the same house as them, seeing them everyday.  Then it happened, I remember the day very well I got up had breakfast with my boys, I was making a list for last minute items for Christmas and around 10:00 AM Kyle and I walked outside to go our separate ways he was off to work and I was going into town, I remember opening my car door and telling him I love him and to have a great day and to be careful and the last is there anything else special you need, he told me he loved me. That's the last thing I remember until March the next year, when I found out what happened. When I left that day I went a different way than Kyle (Thank God) I got about 2 miles from my house when my neighbor pulled out in front of me not stopping at the stop sign, I was told that I hit him and he was thrown out and killed but it wasn't my fault. I was hurt really bad, very lucky to be alive but what followed after that day has not been fun. I got divorced, my boys moved out, I was moved into my parents house to recup and on and on. Oh and the surgery's I hope I am done with them but who knows I still have some problems..alot with my knee and my back..maybe someday. My therapist has told me to take one hour on this day to reflect and move on for the day. It's so hard, but this I hope is the hour and I can move on with my day.
I made a list of the good and the bad things I have went thru since that day:
THE BAD:
I lost my house, I got divorced (which was a good thing), I have had more surgery's than I can count, I have moved a total of 8 times (hopefully I am settled now) but since then I am so restless I just can't put my finger on that one it seems that no matter where I am, I am happy for awhile then I get restless again, I don't see my boys like I would like to but I am so happy they where able to move past this whole mess and be happy. I tryed to end my life twice ( I know stupid) but I have learned that lesson and don't believe I will ever go that route again. I could go on and on but you get the idea...
THE GOOD:
I am alive and for the most part very happy. I met a wonderful man who I married a year ago, one who can put up with me and all my problems... he takes me for who I am the good, the bad, and the ugly. I don't know why he puts up with me sometimes, or how I got so lucky to marry someone like him. 
I kept my leg that was hurt so badly and have had 8 surgery's on...I so hope I am done with them, my leg is always gonna hurt but I have it. My short term memory is getting a little better.. I may never get knowing my right and left but for the most part as far as my head injury goes its getting better. I know there is alot more to be happy but for right now I am the happiest I am going to be a grandmother and my other son proposed to his girlfriend..finally I am so looking forward to a great year.
I hope you all have a very MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! I have been really preoccupied lately, that I have not been online much and won't be until this next Monday, I am gonna be out of town for Christmas visiting family and I am excited for the first time in a long time  I feel like this is gonna be a normal Christmas!!! I can't wait to see my son's and all the other things I have planned. So be safe this holiday season and thanks for reading someday I am gonna put this all past me, I know it will always be there but someday it will happen! 
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!